Life ain't always beautiful??

I slept at 9pm last night.I woke up at 630am. Ive been thinking about my life lately.
Scenario

You set your goals in life

put energy into it and try harder to complete successfully, but everything falls apart,unreachable and..all you can do is start all over again?
Ohh..
What should I do? Accept is and believe that there are reasons why?
Suddenly,all this Qs pop up
"bila ni"
"bila lagi"
"cepatla"
"cepat..cepat.."
Guess what, Ive been struggling with this issue long time ago.Balik kampung org tanya..sini tanya,sana tanya! Tired!
Pernah tak terfikir ape yang ada dlm fikiranku?Pernah tak fikir susah senangku?I bet..NOPE. All you can say is.."cepat..cepat..cepat.."
Do you think I am a machine?Push button pastu terus jadi?
Few months ago at my gym.While waiting for my so-called-fav-aunty-at the gym lounge, I overheard this:
Girl A : Do you know one of our gym member tak?Heard kahwin dah 2 yrs, tapi takda anak lagi. Dia planning la tu dulu2.Pastu bla nak payah la tu.. Girl B : Haaa..ada ada..tula ..tuhan nak bagi dulu taknak, skang bila nak payah la tu.
Girl A : Eh, tapi yg mana satu eh that girl?
Girl B: ha..tu kena tanya Girl C sbb dia citer tadi.

You can't possibly imagine how freaked out I was when I heard this.Of course they cant see me because Im not facing them! *smile.OMG..I was so pissed off ! What give you the right to judge me? You barely even know me!??And..are you talking about my fate???Who the hell are you??????!!!!@@#$%^
oops please excuse my languange!

And as I was leaving, I thought I might as well say something..so I did!
Me : Im teribbly sorry but I coulnt help myself..overhearing your chit-chats a while ago.The person that Girl C was mentioning..is me.Im fadd by the way.
Both of them were saying sorry to me.Of course I forgive both of them.But I tell them Im gonna blog about this.And here I am *smile

I am so disappointed right now. Only Allah knows what is the best..believe me, it's really hard for me.Disappointment is perhaps one of the most difficult things to deal with in life.It is painful, but it can inspire me to be a better person. If we let disappointments pile up, they lead to discouragement.As for me, Im turning disappointment in a positive direction, moving myself closer to Allah. No matter how painful my disappointment may be,Allah is trustworthy and I believe in qada' and qadar.

Yups "perjuanganku belum selesai", pinjam kata2 Dr.M.Well, maybe ada betulnya.Ada lagi yg I need to do that doesnt achieve yet.Now, all I need is for you to dua' for me: my happiness, my life...bla bla bla..
There must be hikmah and reasons why... So please dua' that all goes well.I just need a helping hand.Not anything fancy or luxury.Just a dua.
And I hope that's okay.

"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.”
Martin Luther King, Jr.

Love